Remember...

Remember how I've been in a "non-relationship" for almost 3 years. Remember how hearing him say words such as "us" and "we" when talking about futures makes my eye twitch. Remember how being near him, cuddling with him and playing our "radio game" are some of my most favorite times. Remember how I can't smell sunscreen without thinking about him.

Remember how a cute boy came into my work and smiled at me, and I lost all brain function. Remember how I wouldn't give him my number because I am in a "non-relationship." Remember how after he left, I couldn't stop thinking about his smile.. those eyes. Remember how I was a crazy person and looked all over Newport for him, and then when that didn't work went home and searched Facebook. Remember how I am terrified of the internet because of people just like me.

Remember how I need to seek professional help.

Again.